The Sunday Morning Drunk

I'm in Hell. That's life. Who needs pants? I don't give a crap if it's 20 degrees, shorts will be fine on a 2/3 of a mile walk to the 24 hour convenience store for a 6 pack. Beer needed, pants be damned. Can't find my jacket so two long sleeve thermal shirts and a short sleeve over that's good. 3:45 a.m., barely any cars on the road. No cars for 5 or ten minutes, Evanescence in the ears, but how come when there's cars, two at the same time pass in opposite directions? What are the odds?!? Bizarre. Gloves were need but just pull the hands inside the sleeves and it's allg ood.

Beer bought, walk home. More Evanescence. Though I was walking on a road, that's some great hiking music for a cold morning under the stars. Warm on the the way home, no more freezing hands. Grateful Dead terrapin hemp baseball hat keeps me head warm. Somethin' like 45 minutes later, home I am to drink. Air temp was below freezing so beer was cold right away. Nice. Evanescence finishes so how about some Pearl Jam in the ears? Loud, fast, joyless. There's no joy in hopelessness.

8:12 a.m. now and I'm on my last beer. Thankfully the convenience store closer to me (not 24 hrs) uis now open. NBeed more beer, spelling erros now be damhed. Screw 'em.

INXS - Dekadance. Shoryt EP before I play me some Temple of the Dog.

Tis weally messed up, Elmer Fudd would say with a "w" instead of an "r" -- Sunday morning church? Or beer? Beer and hopelessness. Screw the world, screw everything. Just give me loud, fast, somewhat maybe angry music and endless CSI: Miami's and NCIS episodes. Leverage on TNT and Psych on USa start soon. Family Guy's good for a laugh now and then, Community and 30 Rock and Parks & Recreation also... but what good is a laugh without joy? It's so false? Temporary? All laughs are temporary but I guess it's just momentary, something to fill up a tiny little part of life before death. A mometary distraction from the hell.

Someone commented here recently along the lines of -- "Play some Dead." Yeah, right. I wish I could. I want to. Badly. It's so0 messed up, ya know, the desire is tremendously tjhere for the Gratefil Dead and Jerry HGarcia to provide again some joy in this life . . . but it just ain't a-happenin'. Just ain't. There's nothing in life to be happy about. Happiness makes the GD and JGB awesome, just dopwnright freakin' awesome, ya know, great, splendid, wicked great, bitchgin', gnarly, killer, orgasmic, wonderful, mmmm, so goooooood . . . i know this . . . but I can't press play because there's no joy to be the door to that added Grateness. Do I make sense. Probably not. Do i care? No. Whatever. I just wish I had a home. I'm fucking homeless, I've nowhere that I fit in. Home is where the heart is and where's my heart? Stolen and I hate it. I hate life. I hatre myself. I hate the world. I hate life and I just wish I could slice my wrists open and bleed to death. Yay. Now there'd be some joy. Whatever. Temple of the Dog's playing, last beer's being drunk and tis perhaps time for me to get me another 6 pack. I dunno why. Seriously -- I've been great with maybe a mere one six pack in like the last 3 or 4 weeks, constanly battloing the d4esire to drink, but the alcholic compulsion is there right now. Why? It just is. Nothing else to say. Ramble ramble ramble. Country's going to hell. Whatever. Music plays, nothing gives me joy. Want to die. Whatever. Maybe I'll sober up and find a good video to post after this to deflect. Why',m I even typing all this crap? Beats me. Whatever. Life sucls. Did i mnention that already or not? yeahh ... i thought i did.

Merry Christmas?

Happy Xmas (War Is Over) - John Lennon

George W. Bush: What's Wrong With You?!?!

Appalling!

Bush's inauguration in 2005 cost $42.3 million -- a record. What a waste. What a pathetic waste of money that could've been used for better things for this country and/or to help the lives of others around the world who suffer so horribly, far worse than most do here in the U.S.

Here's what the Associated Press said about Bush's 2005 inauguration:

President Bush’s second inauguration will cost tens of millions of dollars — $40 million alone in private donations for the balls, parade and other invitation-only parties. With that kind of money, what could you buy?
■ 200 armored Humvees with the best armor for troops in Iraq.
■ Vaccinations and preventive health care for 22 million children in regions devastated by the tsunami.
■ A down payment on the nation’s deficit, which hit a record-breaking $412 billion last year….
The questions have come from Bush supporters and opponents: Do we need to spend this money on what seems so extravagant?

New York Rep. Anthony Weiner, a Democrat, suggested inaugural parties should be scaled back, citing as a precedent Roosevelt’s inauguration during World War II.

“President Roosevelt held his 1945 inaugural at the White House, making a short speech and serving guests cold chicken salad and plain pound cake,” according to a letter from Weiner and Rep. Jim McDermott, D-Wash. “During World War I, President Wilson did not have any parties at his 1917 inaugural, saying that such festivities would be undignified.”…

I couldn't agree more. Just pathetic.

Now (on the 20th) we'll have a new president, One (The Savior) who will bring Change to the American people, who will restore America's popularity throughout the world. No more of that crap that there used to be.

And the price tag on The Savior's inauguration? Let's see, Bush in '05 was at $42.3 million . . . how pathetic. How about this time, hmmmm . . . how about $150 million?!?? Yeah!!!! Let's blow Bush's record out of the water!!!!!

Yes, that's Change!!!!!!! This will be the most expensive inauguration ever.

Exactly what America needs.

Hmmm, how many vaccinations would that be this time?

Let the justification begin...

Liberals are such beautiful people

President George W. Bush's mom (and former First Lady) was taken to the hospital last night and is recovering from surgery now.

Here are some actual well wishes from some very beautiful liberals:

• Fuck. Time to get out my casket dancin' shoes for the old bitch.
• Is there another thread to pray for her speedy decline, or can we just do it here?
• I've been waiting for my demon queen to take her rightful place in hell so this is working out well for me.
• Bush's uterus is one of the known gates of Hell.
• Stupid cunt. I hope there is a Hell and she rots there, forever.

God Bless the Looney Left.

Congressman - Thief

It always warms my heart when I hear about members of our Federal government who are out to fatten their bank account with some sort of deal that is, oh, slightly, how shall we say it -- ILLEGAL. Illegal and/or shady and completely mysterious.

Normally I'm not going to read the New York Times because they've become a newspaper dedicated to having a partisan agenda to wipe out conservatism in America, but when they post a story like this, they must have good reason to:

Representative Charles B. Rangel has helped raise $11 million for a City College of New York school of public service to be named in his honor. In recent months, as questions have emerged about his fund-raising, he has insisted that he has kept his efforts to attract donors scrupulously separate from his official duties in Congress.

But Congressional records and interviews show that Mr. Rangel was instrumental in preserving a lucrative tax loophole that benefited an oil-drilling company last year, while at the same time its chief executive was pledging $1 million to the project, the Charles B. Rangel School of Public Service at C.C.N.Y.

Read it all here.

Good old Rangel, he helped that company saved tens of millions of dollars annually. Meanwhile, our United States Treasury was deprived of approximately 1.1. Billion dollars... Billion with a Big Bulbous B.

Prior to allowing the tax loophole, Rangel was AGAINST it. Staunchly. He even wanted to RAISE taxes on companies like this. Ahhh, but if one will pay to fund the school with HIS name on it, if they'll help stroke his ego a little more, hmmmm... might be able to make an exception, eh, Rangel?

It's no wonder the American people, in general, despise our government when we've got jerkface dillholes like Rangel and Ted Stevens doing whatever they want.

Pathetic.

Oh, and this isn't the first time Rangel's been accused of wrongdoing.

The 19-term crook has been looked at by the House Ethics Committee since summer for other tax scams of his. These may not have been worth over a BILLION dollars to his country but he's (allegedly) been trying to get away with things for awhile now. Of course he's done "nothing morally wrong." Really, Charlie? You really are one seriously backwards mental patient in need of a padded room... or a cyanide pill, perhaps.

Oh no, what will Jon Stewart do?

Why couldn't Jon Stewart make fun of the masses of morons who voted for the president-elect?

Mutterings for Freedom

I should go running. I should go hiking. Ahhh but football's on and I'm still recovering from a wicked cold so I don't feel so bad vegging out.

How about this for now...

Unconscious Mutterings

a free association game

The word is :: and I think ... ?

1. Spit it out :: Get rid of it!

2. Shadow :: one of my cats when growing up.

3. Database :: Librarian

4. Expression :: facial

5. Boss :: Bruce Springsteen

6. Baby :: Dirty Dancing

7. Mystic :: Pizza / Connecticut ... movie with Julia Roberts / real town.

8. Kate :: Beckinsale ... actress I just watched in the movie Vacancy with Luke Wilson.

9. Boobies :: breasts

10. Raid :: Elián González. Sadly, the Deputy Attorney General at the time, Eric Holder, is now being considered for Attorney General in the next presidential administration.

When the pathetic U.S. government took Elián González, it was the first time in the history of this great nation that custody of a child was transferred using authoritarian jackboot thug tactics executed by masked, combat-ready, heavily armed men. Should I mention that sticking a fully automatic weapon into an innocent child's face is not acceptable? Yet that's what they did and Eric Holder is partially responsible for that. That poor little boy was scared shitless by our government's actions. I'd've been scared shitless, too, if I knew I was going to be shipped back to a scumbag communist controlled land. Here in America -- Elián was FREE. There's he's just a casualty of evil, a possession of Fidel Castro.

This should NEVER have happened. The U.S. Immigration and Naturalization Service awarded custody to Elián's uncle. A family court judge had decided that he would be the best custodian for the boy. A ruling was made that Elián must remain in the United States until his custodial family could file for an asylum hearing. Before that, dipshit Attorney General Janet Reno, serving under President Bill Clinton, ordered that Elián be removed from his family and deported to Cuba.

In the request for a Search Warrant presented to a federal judge, the claim was made that Elián was being kept against his will, that he was being kidnapped!!

They lied. Eric Holder and Janet Reno, under Bill Clinton -- they lied. They chose to defy a court order, to carry out a Gestapo-type raid on the home of Elián González, and to spit in the face of Freedom.

I'm sorry, president-elect, but sticking a fully automatic weapon into a terrified little boy's face, that's NOT how you transfer child custody in this nation. Yet the man you want for Attorney General, that's what he was part of. He was a part of allowing Communism to win. Elián González's mother DIED trying to give Freedom to her child. She died, you piece of shit. She died. Yet someone you support wanted to return him to the prison he came from and take away that Freedom.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

How does shoving a weapon into a child's face in order to ship him back to Cuba fit into that?

P.S. did I mention his mom DIED trying to give her child Freedom in America? And your man for Attorney General -- Eric Holder -- was part of pissing on the memory of that dead woman who just wanted what was best for her son. Pathetic.
Fuck off, Barack Obama.
This is NOT what American Freedom is...

...that's what the American Gestapo does.

If anyone can be called a kidnapper in this case, who do you think it is? Elian's uncle or Janet Reno and Eric Holder? Hmmmm.... I wonder.

And so ain't it just lovely that Eric Holder might become the top law enforcement officer of the land? Is that the mentality we want in the White House and the Justice Department? We want to protect children, don't we? DON'T WE?!?!?! To place a child where he or she will be abused and treated as a possession is WRONG. I thought there was going to be change with the new president. Change for the worse apparently. Isn't that special.

Olympic Gold Glitters Gluttonously

God Bless America -- Home of the Free, Land of the Feed Those Who Can Already Feed Themselves.

Michael Phelps, swimmer extraordinaire/fish, is coming back to the United States with a record 8 Gold Medals. Beijing been berry berry good to Michael Phelps. He ain't just a-comin' home with gold but with sponsorships up the old ying yang. Speedo, maker of those hideous things some call bathing suits (a.k.a. banana hammocks) is giving Mikey $1,000,000 for winning those 8 golds. Not bad, I guess. Perhaps he earned it. I'm all for capitalism.

But there are two very shocking things related to the winning of those Olympic gold medals -- Mr. Phelps' diet is one.

What kind of pathetically selfish human being consumes 12,000 calories a day? Phelps starts "his day by eating three fried-egg sandwiches loaded with cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, fried onions and mayonnaise.

He follows that up with two cups of coffee, a five-egg omelet, a bowl of grits, three slices of French toast topped with powdered sugar and three chocolate-chip pancakes.

At lunch, Phelps gobbles up a pound of enriched pasta and two large ham and cheese sandwiches slathered with mayo on white bread - capping off the meal by chugging about 1,000 calories worth of energy drinks.

For dinner, Phelps really loads up on the carbs - what he needs to give him plenty of energy for his five-hours-a-day, six-days-a-week regimen - with a pound of pasta and an entire pizza.

He washes all that down with another 1,000 calories worth of energy drinks."

Hey, Mike, how many nations on Earth have children who don't consume 12,000 calories in a month? Maybe you know? I'm just wondering. There are places where children have to scavenge through garbage dumps in order to find a few precious morsels that they'll share with their siblings. I could be wrong but I'm guessing they don't quite get 12,000 calories from their daily trips to look through the trash. Maybe you'd like to sit down and take some video of you eating just one meal, send that video to them, and maybe it'll make them feel better.

Does winning so many gold medals help rid the soul of the guilt? The million bucks probably helps, too. Maybe you had no guilt to begin with?

Also disturbing in The Gluttony of Michael Phelps is Pizza Hut's involvement. Between 3 and 5 million dollars is what Phelps, pre-2008 Summer Olympics, was estimated to be earning. So long as it's made morally and legally (I guess illegally would be immorally,) once again, I'm all for capitalism and that's fine. I've just gotta wonder -- does the dude really need free pizza and pasta for a year? You've got to be kidding me.

Hey, Pizza Slut, rather than give free food to someone who can afford to buy a few dozen pies every single day, why not donate food/money to feed human beings who live in poverty and may die from starvation? Just a thought. If not then I want to congratulate you for helping feed someone who is rich, someone who can afford to feed himself. Way to go!!! You've done well!!!!

To help feed those Michael Phelps and Pizza Hut neglect, consider a donation to Oxfam International. Just click the logo or link below for more information.

www.oxfam.org

This world works so beautifully, doesn't it?

WEEKEND, BABY! Yeah, that actually doesn't mean much to me. I don't have to work again until Sunday night so I do have (most of) the weekend off... but that's not always the case. Working a Saturday or a Sunday is a usual occurrence for someone who serves the community.

Anyway, let's see here... anything of substance this morning?

Burma/Myanmar sucks. Their IDIOT government wants foreign aid in the wake of the cyclone that struck there a week ago. But right now aid workers are sitting on their asses twiddling their thumbs in neighboring countries while visas are continually being denied or taking for-freaking-ever to be issued. Meanwhile -- people suffer. Meanwhile meanwhile -- much of the world doesn't care. I dunno for sure, that's just a cynical guess. All people can do, basically, is give a few dollars but I wonder how much of that is going on. As it appears at the moment, supplies are hardly getting to those who need them anyway. The brutal, murderous junta (military dictatorship) "running" that country is the biggest example of schmuck-face dooshbagery in this world right now. They almost make Ahmadinejerk and Kim Jong Mentally Il look sane. They certainly make the Bush regime look like a bunch of haloed Easter bunny genius angels in Santa Claus suits with bells on. Hurricane Katrina and the response to that was a spilled glass of water compared to the cyclone and aftermath in Burma.

The events there have turned from tragic to... I'm literally shaking my head at how insane this all is. In many affected parts of the nation, there's NO sign of any aid at all. Corpses, decomposing, lie about here and there with no one to pick them up. Not a few, not a hundred... thousands of them.

WHY DOES THE WORLD ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN?!? The world, collectively, goes about their business and allows a "government" like the one in Myanmar to do whatever they want... and now TENS OF THOUSANDS are dead, MILLIONS are suffering, homeless and without food and water. Military dictatorships who treat their people worse than dirt need to be forcibly removed from power. Sanctions against these nations just prolongs suffering and things do not change.

God, I envy (sometimes) the Americans who go about their lives not giving a crap about the rest of the world outside of their immediate line of sight.

I just can't be that person.

still muddy trail but getting close to being runable... for now still indoors.

Friday After Work Run: 20 minutes 15 sec

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Run Time May: 1 hour 40 minutes April: 3 hours 51 minutes <-failed to pass March March: 3 hours 57 minutes

Couple hours ago, after my shift was over at 9 a.m. this morning, before I came home, turned on the news and got mad and sad, determined to keep up my current running frequency, I headed straight to the gym to the get my needed exercise in.

5th run in 9 days. Nice. Another good 20 minutes. I've been having no ill effects from this increased amount of running and these days these runs go pretty smoothly. After that misfortunate leg fracture last spring, I've certainly recovered and am doing well on my way to longer and longer running times... of course that's taking forever, it seems, but slow and steady wins the race... not that I'm running a race but what I'm a sayin' here is slow and steady is helping to better assure myself that I'm not pushing it too much, possibly dangerously so. Last thing I want is to be sidelined.

Running tunes came from the album of the day...
	Fee We Shine 2007 (debut)
All Because Of Jesus We Shine Glorious One Burn For You Beautiful The Blood Happy Day Life High Victorious Grace Will Be My Song Broadcast Faithful You Are The Light

This is a fairly kickin' album. I had a feeling it would be. At the moment I don't listen to Christian radio but occasionally I check a Weekly Top 20 List and Fee, with the song "We Shine" (I think) was on their for awhile... maybe even reached #1? Just checked again and they have a song at #5. Popular new band, they are. Very cool.

Their debut from last September has really put them in a national spotlight. Lotta loud songs here with a nice amount of guitar to give a good edgy sound at times... especially with the Number 1 single here -- "We Shine". Holy cow, the video below shows them (loudly!) playing this song in church. How cool is that?! Other songs on the album aren't as fast and as "alternative" sounding as We Shine but overall it's a good mix that doesn't get too fluffy. Lyrics stay right down the middle, not overly preachy but at times they are raising up Christ directly by name rather than wandering into ambiguous territory. Some Christian music reviewers will not exactly applaud Fee calling them unmemorable and cookie cutter but they are what Christian music needs in order to give fans a wider array of artists to listen to.

find a dload @ Música Cristã MP3

VJ time!
From the North Point Community Church
in Alpharetta, Georgia -- Fee with "We Shine"

Never Just Monday-Friday...

How fun is it to work the Saturday overnight shift?

Not very. Sometimes it ain't bad when you get boring call after boring call -- no blood, no vomit, no brains, maybe an IV or two. At the end of the shift you can slump down into the couch, take a deep breath, let out a big sigh, and just relax.

Then there are nights like the one I just had. I've been off-duty for a little over 2 hours now, since 9 a.m.... and... I'm burnt out.

All I can do is veg out. I don't even wanna think right now.

Seahawks-Rams is on. So is Buffalo-Jacksonville. Yawn.

Chicago Bears are on next... but I need sleep. They kinda bite anyway this year.

It's a beautiful morning, though. Over much of America, the sun's flyin' high overhead. Might not be very warm but where there isn't an overcast sky, sure is sunny. Here there are no clouds to speak of today but it's halfway dark because the sun barely rises above the horizon this time of year. 11:30 a.m. and it looks like 7 a.m. elsewhere. It's very cool, in a way, but right now it's bringin' me down a little...

because I'm wondering why the hell some people have kids?! I think it was just yesterday that I mentioned in a comment I left at Mark's smorgasborg of fun -- Knockin' On The Golden Door -- that people oughta need a license to become a parent.

It's true. You need a license to become a barber? But anyone can have a kid?

Take, for example, this idiot last night who got in her car, with her infant in the child safety seat... she drives off the road and about 75 feet down an embankment. Neither she or the kid is wearing a jacket with the temperature at about 7 to 8° F (-13 to -14 C.) There's no smell of alcohol or marijuana but this woman is clearly whacked out of her gourd. Her face has been beautifully rearranged by the windshield and her year old baby, this is the best part, wasn't properly strapped into the child safety seat... and the seat itself wasn't seatbelted in AT ALL. Mom, in her unbelievably deranged state, kept saying that she'll just walk home. She never asked about the baby. Not once. Both would probably be just fine... but God Bless, meth, huh?!

I need to get out of this line of work once and for all. Of course, if I'm not flying fulltime, I'll be writing books including some about very sad subjects like poverty... which'll be so uplifting, huh?

Just after the noon o'clock hour now and... time to sleep.